I’m taking a break from my socio/political and philosophical commentaries to muse on just how blessed a man I am. I’m two years into my second marriage, and I’m happier than I have ever been. Sure, life is tough and stressful, and the world is dangerous, and there’s work, and bills, and responsibilities, and all the rest, but then, there’s Eileen.
My first marriage was a disaster. Sheila was selfish, abusive and a user of people. Anything/anyone who didn’t serve her, got chewed up and spit out. Her pets, her friends, even her husband(s) were disposable. She constantly told me of how her previous men failed her. No doubt, I’m part of her Litany, now. I don’t know anything about these guys, but I do know what we have in common…her.
I don’t want to go too far into the weeds by making this an anti-Sheila screed. Suffice it to say that the PTSD I got from my Combat Tour at Edgewater Hospital, was aggravated by being married to Sheila. When we divorced, I thought I’d never love again. That I’d live safe and alone (and lonely) with just me and my cats. And then came Eileen. We’d known each other for over ten years, but I’d never thought of her in That Way. I finally asked her out. She said Yes. In less than Two Months, we were married.
This woman is my True Soul Mate. She accepts me, warts and all. I’m a drunkard, and a deeply flawed man. Yet, Eileen only sees the Noble aspirations of my character. She looks at me, and sees not the failure that I am, but the Knight that I wish to be. Our marriage is a true partnership. We agree on all major issues. Eileen doesn’t tell me that she wants me to be the Head of the House, and then fight my every decision. We complete each other’s sentences and say what the other is thinking. We’ve become so synchronized, it’s almost scary. I’ve never gotten along this well with ANYONE. Sure, we have our fights and disagreements, like anyone. We’re human. But these tiffs are always minor and never last. Eileen is truly My Beloved. I wish I deserved her. I’m gonna keep trying. My love, I don’t deserve you. I love you, Wife.
3 replies on “Beating As One”
That’s supposed to be soul mate, not should mate. Wish editing of comments were allowed.
How silly…I can edit my comment to my comment, but not my original comment.
Now I can edit my original comment and my later comment. Wow
After two marriages and ten years of abstinence I understand where you are coming from. I met my soul mate on Apple discussions forum while attempting to help her solve technical issues, and after six months of “pen pal” e-mailing she came to visit me. We’ve been together over twelve years now and it couldn’t be better for me. You’d have to ask her if she feels the same though *snicker*.
I’m hip, brother. My Sweetie rolls her eyes every time I say it, but I Definitely got the better end of our deal. Eileen’s not perfect, but she’s perfect for me.